They say whatever you do on January 1st, you’ll continue doing every single day that year….let’s see if that proves to be true…
After much reflective contemplation, I’ve decided that 2013 wasn’t really a stand out year. It was a somewhat emotional year where I partially lost myself, then slowly got back onto the right track and re-gained the confidence that I once lost, or maybe never even had. I welcomed people into my life that probably should have stayed out(boooo!), I unintentionally pushed people away that I should have pulled closer(another boooo!) …but at the same time, I allowed people into my life that helped set my life where it should be and made me realize who’s welcome, and who’s not(yay!). I’ve constantly realized how important it is to surround yourself with people that genuinely care about you and want to help you move forward and bring up your confidence, not knock down your self-esteem. I’ve also had encounters with people who allegedly claim to be on your side, and allegedly CLAIM that they’re always looking out for you and always want the best for you when really, they’re just trying to make themselves look good with underlying ill-minded, selfish, backstabbing intentions – honey, this ain’t middle school. I highly encourage everyone to stay away from people like that, trust me, it makes life so much better to relieve yourself of that, plus it’s probably better for your health.
On a side note in reference to this whole blogging thing, it’s getting so much harder to conceal my identity…I feel like I talk about a lot of things to people which means I most likely wouldn’t post about it on here..which is my explanation for posting A LOT less than I used to…bittersweet. In first year I would blog about first year courses and what life on residence was like and a lot of events that were very much geared towards first year students….now that I’m in third year, my courses are more specialized and it’s seemingly much harder to talk about things(school,involvement, life, etc) in a general way that wouldn’t reveal who I am.
Anyway, putting everything that should stay behind, behind; here’s to a fresh start and a new year filled with new friends to meet, old friends to cherish, new experiences to live, new memories to make, and great things to come.
Over halfway into December and this is my first post. I am finally done with my first term finals….phew. It was a rollercoaster ride of stress, frantic frenzy, motivation, willpower, annoyance, and a whole lot of crazy and losing my mind. BUT NOW IT’S OVER, and I hope for the best for when my grades come out. Now there’s a week left before Christmas…I didn’t even notice December flying by. I’m not a fan of Glee, but this got me through my exams with some Christmas cheer.
Now I want some snow.
So it’s been a not so down with the blues, gloomy, November this year since it’s been rather sunny/rain-less for most of the month. YAY. And as I say that, we’re expecting rain at the end of the week… Anyway, there are only TWO days left of this term, and I can’t even come to terms with how fast this term has flown by. I always feel like I go to Hogwarts or something whenever this time of year comes around at UBC, something about winter and Christmas and going home for the break. I’m still peeved by how I’m hindered from having some decent wintery fun during the first few weeks of December with my friends thanks to those things called finals. 😦 so many fun things to do…….but ain’t nobody got time for dat?
Anywho, I’ve been thinking (notice how I’m procrastinating from studying), this time of the school year is when we’re so absorbed into things that we need to get done, that we tend to neglect those around us. I know I’m completely guilty of this(I promise it’s not intentional! it just happens..), hence why I felt like making a post of it(see what I did thur?). So many little things are consuming my time and attention that I look past the big picture. Sometimes I lose my genuineness when I’m having a conversation with someone, they won’t have my undivided attention and it’ll just seem too forced out of politeness, regardless of how well I may know that person, that is bad bad bad bad bad. Or I’ll have a conversation with someone and it’ll be a mutual rant of all the things we have left to do. Whatever happened to a simple “hey, how’re YOU doing?” — not the generic run through of “hey!” “hey!” “how’s it going?” “good! you?” “good!” “kay, see ya later!” “bye!” – regardless of how crappy I may be feeling on a day, when I have one of these run-by ‘conversations'(if you can even call it that), I will automatically spit out a “good”, just to get by and avoid all further questions since the other person, or myself, are in a rush. I know I’m not the only one. So, take a few minutes to step outside of your little bubble and reconnect with anyone you’ve disconnected with.
Third year has been intensely CRAZY, I can’t deal with it. Midterms are coming up VERY soon, and life has become a heck of a lot busier than I’m used to it being. But. I must sleep now. In hopes of getting up early tomorrow. AS IF.
This apparently motivates me while I’m studying. Start off the new school year right, ‘cuz we’re going to own it.
“And then suddenly it hit me. That moment you realize you’re not half empty. That moment of all moments- like there is music in the night and we can dance the sun out of the sky. These are the nights where everything feels possible.
Maybe one day we’ll fall short of the stories we tell, but tonight we are more than just words on a page. We are here, we are different, and we are everlasting.
We are Half Moon Kids. We are Legendary. “
OH HEY. This past week has been incredibly busy and tiring. I feel like I’ve had zero rest since last weekend. MUG leader training was was on Sunday and Labor Day(Monday) – rather long days with barely any sleeping in; then the real deal, Imagine Day was on September 3rd. Imagine Day was incredibly chaotic, but the fun, I wouldn’t have done anything differently kind of chaotic – most of the chaos ensued when we had to turn to morning”rain plans”, last minute. There were quite a few lost, “didn’t get the message” muggies – but it’s okay because we all adapted fairly well to the spontaneous change of plans! (Y). Thankfully it stayed overcast as of late morning and then EVENTUALLY we got some blue sky in time for the pep rally…which was inside, but at least we weren’t waiting to load in the pouring rain. The pep rally was super fun and the pride of all the faculties was AWESOME. I must say though, Kinesiology definitely took the cake for the most enthusiastic in a happy, non-obnoxious way – they were super loud and proud for a small faculty – get those kincoasters going! They went all out in green, seriously, I love them all. Then Wednesday came along, classes began…it was meh, boring. I really dislike the first week of school because I feel like all the profs take a painfully long time going over the syllabus and course goals..and then decide to dump homework on us before we even learn anything in class. BUT that is the life of a university student…just get dumped on, we don’t slowly stroll into the university regime. Thursday was super stressful because I felt like I was running around all over campus like a chicken with its head cut off, selling/buying textbooks – STRESSFUL. SO GLAD THAT IS OVER AND DONE WITH. I needed a massage. Then Friday came along and it was a low key day with no rain. Rain was my biggest concern all week, every morning I would watch the clouds rolling in, covering up the blue sky, it was so sad. You’d think I’d be used to the Vancouver rain by now…considering I’ve been around here for most of my life..but NOPE! Every time it rains I go into pout mode. Heh 😛 Today was a really long day as well and I’m beyond tired, I just want to crawl into bed and sleep…but no, I have to do pre-readings instead. All in all, the best part of the week was definitely having the opportunity to catch up with old friends, and making new ones. I love walking into a class and seeing a ton of familiar faces, especially when you first thought that you would know absolutely no one! So extra points to me for knowing at least 4-5 people in every class, WOOO!
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