If there is one day that I HAVE to post something, it’s on my “bloggeversary”, June 26th. 4 years ago I was sitting in the computer room of my house “studying” (studying = stalking everything UBC because that’s how stoked I was) for my grade 12 provincial exams, anticipating starting my first year at UBC in the following September. Whoa, THAT was a lifetime ago. Now I am currently on my computer, writing a blog post while I’m anticipating about an exciting opportunity that has come up in my life, woo. Once you graduate from high school, things just keep changing. You go into first year university (assuming you took this route) and you can say that you can anticipate (my new favourite word apparently) where you will be until you finish your degree, or maybe not, lots of people realize university isn’t their thing and they choose to follow a different path. Some people go into a Science degree in order to fulfill their lifelong desire to become a doctor, and after four years, they graduate with a Fine Arts degree because they took that one Visual Art elective in first year and they realized Science wasn’t for them – you may think that this is an exaggeration, but really, it’s not, it happens. UBC was a time of finding myself, a time to follow various paths until the signs along the road became clearer and I started following a path that seemed to have a clearer destination than when I first set foot on it. If you’re someone that thinks they know where they will be in four years, then great! If you’re someone that doesn’t know where they will be in four years, even better, create your path from scratch! Mind you, it always is nice to have some direction, but do it for you, don’t do it for someone else. I would go back to first year in a heartbeat, would I change the way I did some things, or would I keep it the same? That’s a tough question. I feel like all the things that happened along the way got me to where I am today – the people I met, friendships gained and friendships lost, the experiences I experienced, my involvement, academic difficulties, all of it. If those things hadn’t happened, I would not be who I am today or where I am today. So really, pave your destination, but there are no guarantees that it will get paved in one go.
And because I’m feeling so throwbacky…here’s an irrelevant music video from forever ago…because I heard the song today. I am pretty sure I loved this song between the ages of 9-13, and I think I still enjoy it to the same extent. I can’t get over the level of corny in music videos from the early 2000s, like what?
2 months later.
That makes me so happy. It’s perfect. It’s beautiful. It’s wonderful. It’s peaceful. It’s blissful.
The next week is going to be hectic crazy for me with studying, I plan to do the morning-night study regime for the next week and a half. On the bright side, I’m done with exams fairly early..relatively speaking to my past exam schedules.
But this term. This term was great. It lived up to the fourth year-ness academically for sure. I can’t believe I only have one more term of proper undergrad…CRAZY.
I think usually my last week of classes is fairly low key, but this term, not so much, I felt like I had so much to do, it was never-ending, so hitting submit on the last assignment of this term was rather liberating. I actually love the first week of exams (if I don’t have an exam in the first couple days that is) because I actually like taking the entire day off to study…..because really, my one purpose in life for the next 12-13 days or so is to study my butt off. Don’t have any classes to go to, don’t have any other assignments to submit. Just eat, sleep, study, eat, sleep, study, study, sleep. and eat. with small breaks here and there.
And side note, there’s a freaking coyote roaming around on campus, and EVERYONE and their mother, have seen it, but not me. I have yet to see this coyote that everyone is taking pictures of.
One more side note. It’s Black Friday..and ever since my prof showed my class a video of Black Friday in the States, I don’t even want to experience it anymore…it’s half crossed off of my bucket list because I’d just, rather not.
…to keep up with posts on this blog. But that’s not working out very well. Ultimately, I want to try to blog as much as possible in my fourth, and final year of my undergrad (EEEEEEEKKK!). Anyway, while we’re at it….I’ve been thinking about life, the future, etc. consistently for the past couple months. To be honest, it’s scary. High school used to be that “safe” place once upon a time…then university became that new “safe” place….and once you’re in the “real world” where’s your “safe” place? We keep getting introduced to these little portions of time that we come to define as our “safe” places…but they never seem to be constant. New experiences can be scary, and so many things can seem uncertain until you establish yourself within your goals and dreams.
I wanted the summer to go by as slow as possible…that’s not working out in my favour…July is almost over. I’ve lost all concept of time…because time just keeps fast forwarding. I know August will be a month of craziness and I’m not sure if I’m QUITE ready for that. It feels like just yesterday that I was a 17 year-old anxiously anticipating her residence assignment for her first year of university…and now look at me…I’m ‘dreading'(I could have used a better word) the start of my last year of undergrad. Although time has gone by fast, I’ve changed as a person and matured and experienced things I never knew I would. I’ve fought against getting consumed by the world and its desires, I’ve gotten lost in my own goals and dreams, and I’ve also tried to live the dreams of others while trying to find myself. It’s been a mixture of struggles and successes, sandwiched between emotions and memories. It’s a lot less scarier when you have the right people standing by your side, while you both experience similar roller coasters of experiences and emotions. There will always be uncertainties as you face the future, but you have to emphasize your life on what is certain and then slowly step into uncertainties as they slowly become stabilized certainties. Regardless of how alone you might feel when it comes to facing the future, you’re never alone and you need to have that fact solidified in your head – you and thousands….millions…billions… of others are in it together. In it to face life, one step at a time. I just need to keep reminding myself of that instead of getting so caught up about what’s going to happen 6 months from now. BREATHE. Think about the present. Living in the present allows you to prepare yourself for the future.
Well today was the last day of classes. It was much less anti-climatic than the last day of first term (makes sense).
I have quite a bit of time before my first final, so I have all these goals and desires of how I’m going to study for my finals….and then time flies by and the night before my final, I’ll go into panic mode and it’s just chummy(what?) from there on.
So here’s my salute to finals. PEACE.
*Be prepared for a rambling vomit of words and thoughts that have a low chance of flowing together in any sensical manner*
Hehe, hey. It’s been a while. Well the past month has been very interesting and busy and crazy, hence the lack of posts, oopsies. But, it’s been great! Just one more month until classes are OVER! CRAZY. I try to avoid thinking about that….*whoosh goes third year* Approximately 3 years ago, I was on the same boat that many grade 12 students are on right now, anxiously waiting for university acceptances, trying to figure out what to do with my life. WEELLLL, let me tell you, the years go by fast, but best of luck to all of you!
I was hoping to be productive this weekend…but one course just took over my entire weekend because it’s so dense and there’s so much content! It’s 6:00 pm right now and it’s incredibly bright outside, one point for daylight savings…minus the fact that I slept in for an extra hour to catch up for that “lost” sleep, but now my day just seems shorter. I feel as though my timeline for the past month seems completely messed up, two weeks ago was the weekend ending Reading Break….which was when we had that random Winter Wonderland, I don’t ever complain about snow! It was great, and UBC’s campus wide snowball fight, that was equally great. Vancouver rarely gets snow like that, 24 hours straight of snowfall….when has that ever happened around here?! Uh, like, never. And now I look out the window and it’s blue skies and sunny brightness and ~13 degrees. Not too shabby….except I’m stuck inside studying/writing this post. I actually have so many things to blog about in future posts that I’ve been putting off for way too long, but unfortunately I have to continue putting it off just a little bit longer so that I can get back to studying..oops.
The song that has been taking over my life for the past week. Pitbull, you always do this to me. I predict that this will be a Summer 2014 anthem song because it’s definitely not popular enough yet.
Never have I been too fond of “growing up” and being an “adult”. I will forever be a kid at heart so don’t go planting weird “you’re an adult now” implications in my head. I was told that once you were done high school, you’d be entering the real world. WELL, I’ve been in this SHELTERED “real world” for the past two and a half years…yes, I call UBC/large universities in general, “sheltered” – UBC can be very ‘bubble-esque’. Once I’ve graduated from UBC, I can say I’ve ‘officially’ entered the real world, regardless of the fact that I’m going to do more school. BUT, in order to not completely feel lost in this so called real world, I need to find a job…or something of the sort that relates to what I want to do with my life – jobs aren’t easy to find(*scary*), but networking, that should be your hobby. Don’t be scared to put yourself out there, it does more good than harm, usually. Moving on…so a lot of my friends from high school are at that point in their lives where they’re moving into the next chapter of their life……that whole marriage business and starting fresh lifestyles with their significant other/spouse, it completely blows my mind how much people can change in a few short years. Sometimes it feels like I’m just a kid that goes to school, and then these friends of mine seem so much more mature, getting married and starting their long term lifestyles….I can’t do that. I’m still kinda figuring out my life and who I want to be and where I want to be, and how I can get there – baby steps, one corner of the puzzle at a time. The first 5-7 years after you graduate from high school are probably some of the most significantly life changing years of your life. So much can happen/change in the few years after you graduate relative to the change you experienced in the same amount of years, during grade school. As per usual, I say all this as if I’m some expert, like the whole ‘5-7 years’ thing, where on earth did I even pick up that statistic from? It has barely been 3 years since I’ve graduated from high school, but I can vouch that a TON has changed for me already, so obviously I’m a reliable source.
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How I would describe the first week back: ‘meh’. There wasn’t enough excitement.
I’m not entirely sure what it was, but this first week of term seemed rather unsatisfying….almost disorganized in a way – taking notes in class was a struggle, no motivation, my brain’s still on vacation. I’m positive the never ending rain has SOMETHING to do with it. I don’t quite know how I feel about my classes yet..I think I need to get used to them, not the content itself but the actual environment of my classes. It bothers me how I can’t pinpoint what exactly is ‘off’…but maybe it’ll get better. I’m rather surprised that I’m actually getting to my morning classes ON TIME, if not earlier *shocking* – I think I’ve halved the amount of time it takes for me to get ready in the morning, less dillydallying.
Tips for future students, especially incoming first years, DO NOT buy books for second term at the end of August/beginning of September from older students… WAIT for your booklists to come out in late December. Why? Because SEVERAL first years this year bought the ‘General Chemistry’ textbook for Chem 123 at the beginning of the school year….and now they’ve realized that that book is of no good for them as the Chem department decided to use a brand new book! Lesson learned? I sure hope so.