Yes. Exactly three years ago, to the hour, I was going through random UBC blogs(UBC Blog Squad blogs as well as regular WordPress blogs of UBC students) and came across Carly Wong’s first blog – how many blogs does a girl need? (but go check out this one while you’re at it.. http://carlywongv2.wordpress.com/ ) …because what other method of procrastination did a soon to be first year UBC student have? Especially when they should have been studying for their Biology 12 Provincial Exam? And to procrastinate even more, that 12th grader decided to start her OWN blog – whoa. Then this happened.
I know I haven’t been blogging very much, but regardless of that, I’ve been getting lots of questions on here from soon to be first years and I’m extremely happy that I am able to pass on my knowledge to you all! 🙂 It’s like reliving my pre-first year excitement. Which makes me move onto my next point….I’m going into fourth year. HA HA ha…ha..wait what. That’s some scary stuff right there, so I refuse to delve deeper into that topic, I’m still a bit touchy about it, so I have nothing more to say about that at this current moment.
As per always(is that even a proper phrase? I don’t know, but we’ll go with it), I do have the intention of blogging more frequently, it just isn’t happening apparently…..but the busyness that is life has died down a tad bit as of today, so maybe I will get back onto that…..so, peace.
Now that it’s summer, I figured I should probably make a post on here….since last month was completely hectic. One may think that they have an excellent exam schedule….until they realize how much time they’ve wasted, resulting in very little time to study, hence the solution is to cram and study like you’ve never studied before. BUT, sometimes, that cramming thing actually works because you’re so determined and desperate to do well on your finals. And sometimes, you think you know nothing, but apparently all that cramming you did transferred useful information into your head, which translated in actually knowing things for your finals. Check please. My week of finals in a nutshell = a drunk blur (substituting alcohol with academic knowledge stuff). I don’t remember much except for pages and pages of notes and countless hours spent in pseudo-solitude…because it got to a point where all my friends were done with their exams and I was still going…(that was slightly depressing).
ENOUGH of that.
It’s summer, and I’m enjoying every minute of doing nothing related to school – although that won’t be lasting for too long since I’m doing summer school, because I just LOVE school that much and CANNOT get enough of it. *mylife*
I’m more excited than one would expect me to be, about the World Cup – yes, I actually watch soccer, be surprised.
I can’t believe that I’m actually done third year…this is mind blowing. Who knew I would make it this far, not me. It’s weird to me to think that just 3 years ago, I was still in grade 12….’ready’ to graduate from high school and ready to enter a new chapter of my life that would be called UBC. Now in approximately one year, I will be graduating from UBC – WWHHHAAAAAAAAAAT?!?!? I’m not even ready to talk about that. Be warned all you future first years, your undergrad goes by at the speed of light.
I can hands down say that this was probably one of the best years of my undergrad(apart from first year…really wasn’t too fond of second year, it was okay). This year was a year of learning and independence. This year gave me a sense of purpose I hadn’t felt before and shaped me as a person through experiences and the people I chose to surround myself with. Second term of this year was probably my favourite, I got closer to a lot of people and met lots of new people that I was really able to connect with on many levels – people that would be with me as I progressed. I think I matured a lot this past year, and well, maturing is a great thing in life – makes you feel old, but it’s real. As a result, my way of thinking has evolved and the way I approach situations and circumstances has also changed. It has allowed me to gain a broader perspective on life(actually), and actually apply the knowledge I’ve gained through various interactions. I hate to say this, but I almost feel like an adult…it’s weird. Looking back since I graduated high school when I was basically a ‘kid’, it boggles me how much I’ve changed as a person. Seventeen year old me and twenty year old me are NOT the same. We may ‘look’ the same, but we do not ‘think’ the same – experience changes people, and it’s weird, but in a cool way. Experience allows you to let go of people that probably shouldn’t stay in your life, and hold on to the ones that do belong by your side.
THAT weekend referring to the weekend before classes commence. *sob*. Actually though, going back to school is always bittersweet, a part of me just wants to stay at home and do everything that’s remotely close to lazy….but another part of me wants to go back to UBC and learn stuff and see friends and be back in Vancouver and get back to routine because any more time at home CANNOT be good for my health at this rate. I’ve been getting 8-10 hours of sleep DAILY(I’m not one that needs excessive sleep, 8 hours is a pretty good amount for me)….I’m getting so much sleep that I’m finding it hard to FALL asleep at night – at least I can say that I’ve gone beyond catching up on all my lost sleep during finals(not that I really lost THAT much sleep…I did get AT LEAST 6 hours of sleep daily which was better than a lot of people). As per always, I’ve started making little mental resolutions about how I WILL do well on my first round of midterms(usually I tend to screw the first round up…even though I ALWAYS go in saying I won’t repeat that mistake). I’m always intrigued by the first week of classes, just to see who I know will end up in my classes, who the profs are, what components make up the course, AND most important…who my ‘new’ friends will be – because meeting new people is great, so put on your social faces.
*and now I’ll get back to packing up all my stuff*
They say whatever you do on January 1st, you’ll continue doing every single day that year….let’s see if that proves to be true…
After much reflective contemplation, I’ve decided that 2013 wasn’t really a stand out year. It was a somewhat emotional year where I partially lost myself, then slowly got back onto the right track and re-gained the confidence that I once lost, or maybe never even had. I welcomed people into my life that probably should have stayed out(boooo!), I unintentionally pushed people away that I should have pulled closer(another boooo!) …but at the same time, I allowed people into my life that helped set my life where it should be and made me realize who’s welcome, and who’s not(yay!). I’ve constantly realized how important it is to surround yourself with people that genuinely care about you and want to help you move forward and bring up your confidence, not knock down your self-esteem. I’ve also had encounters with people who allegedly claim to be on your side, and allegedly CLAIM that they’re always looking out for you and always want the best for you when really, they’re just trying to make themselves look good with underlying ill-minded, selfish, backstabbing intentions – honey, this ain’t middle school. I highly encourage everyone to stay away from people like that, trust me, it makes life so much better to relieve yourself of that, plus it’s probably better for your health.
On a side note in reference to this whole blogging thing, it’s getting so much harder to conceal my identity…I feel like I talk about a lot of things to people which means I most likely wouldn’t post about it on here..which is my explanation for posting A LOT less than I used to…bittersweet. In first year I would blog about first year courses and what life on residence was like and a lot of events that were very much geared towards first year students….now that I’m in third year, my courses are more specialized and it’s seemingly much harder to talk about things(school,involvement, life, etc) in a general way that wouldn’t reveal who I am.
Anyway, putting everything that should stay behind, behind; here’s to a fresh start and a new year filled with new friends to meet, old friends to cherish, new experiences to live, new memories to make, and great things to come.
There’s a chipper old fat guy with a velvety red suit coming around fer ya. So you better watch out. There isn’t even a trace of snow on the ground from last week’s snowfall, how unfortunate. But hey, at least it’s not supposed to be gloomily raining on Christmas, that’s always nice, right? Sadly, I’m feeling SLIGHTLY under the weather, not entirely sure where I got this bug from, but I’ll be okay I think. (Y)
Anyway, I can’t believe that it’s already Christmas Eve, the time I’ve been at home has just been going by so fast, in about 11-ish days, I’ll be back at UBC @_@
What have I been up to?
- watching movies, lots and lots of movies
- debating on whether or not I should get hooked onto some TV series
- laundry(as per always)
- eating more than I should (but that’s A-okay, it’s like they say, calories don’t count over the holidays – but for me, the entire year is a holiday in that case. 😀 )
- applying for jobs for the summer (doing all those grown up things…..whaaat)
- SLEEPING (more than I should, but I’m taking in all the sleep I can get)
- watching YouTube videos(nothing new there, BUT I feel less guilty when I watch them now than during the term when I watch them to drown my sorrows from school (Y) )
- I’ve also come to the realization that there are so many courses that I want to take at UBC, but time won’t allow me to do so unless I take an extra year to graduate….whiiiich doesn’t seem very practical to have a semester or two just to take electives……
- being with my famjam ❤ because I love them
Over halfway into December and this is my first post. I am finally done with my first term finals….phew. It was a rollercoaster ride of stress, frantic frenzy, motivation, willpower, annoyance, and a whole lot of crazy and losing my mind. BUT NOW IT’S OVER, and I hope for the best for when my grades come out. Now there’s a week left before Christmas…I didn’t even notice December flying by. I’m not a fan of Glee, but this got me through my exams with some Christmas cheer.
Now I want some snow.
So it’s been a not so down with the blues, gloomy, November this year since it’s been rather sunny/rain-less for most of the month. YAY. And as I say that, we’re expecting rain at the end of the week… Anyway, there are only TWO days left of this term, and I can’t even come to terms with how fast this term has flown by. I always feel like I go to Hogwarts or something whenever this time of year comes around at UBC, something about winter and Christmas and going home for the break. I’m still peeved by how I’m hindered from having some decent wintery fun during the first few weeks of December with my friends thanks to those things called finals. 😦 so many fun things to do…….but ain’t nobody got time for dat?
Anywho, I’ve been thinking (notice how I’m procrastinating from studying), this time of the school year is when we’re so absorbed into things that we need to get done, that we tend to neglect those around us. I know I’m completely guilty of this(I promise it’s not intentional! it just happens..), hence why I felt like making a post of it(see what I did thur?). So many little things are consuming my time and attention that I look past the big picture. Sometimes I lose my genuineness when I’m having a conversation with someone, they won’t have my undivided attention and it’ll just seem too forced out of politeness, regardless of how well I may know that person, that is bad bad bad bad bad. Or I’ll have a conversation with someone and it’ll be a mutual rant of all the things we have left to do. Whatever happened to a simple “hey, how’re YOU doing?” — not the generic run through of “hey!” “hey!” “how’s it going?” “good! you?” “good!” “kay, see ya later!” “bye!” – regardless of how crappy I may be feeling on a day, when I have one of these run-by ‘conversations'(if you can even call it that), I will automatically spit out a “good”, just to get by and avoid all further questions since the other person, or myself, are in a rush. I know I’m not the only one. So, take a few minutes to step outside of your little bubble and reconnect with anyone you’ve disconnected with.