High-five for alliteration. WOO!
In approximately 6 days I will be starting the last first day of school of my undergrad – very likely the last first day of my UBC educational career. “How do you feel about that?” 😐 sighs for days.
I love UBC, and from all my past posts, especially from my first and second year, one can tell that I absolutely love this place. I looked up the hashtag UBC on Instagram and feelings of nostalgia is what I drowned in when I saw the results. First years with pictures of their student cards all excited to start their university careers…and I’m all “take me back”. First year was wonderful, all the hype and excitement, I could bring that all back up again if I wanted to. Starting fourth year on the other hand has a different kind of “excitement” boiling up in me. To be honest, I just feel old. Feelings of “been there, done that” surround me constantly, but no, I still have so much more to experience and I have approximately 8 months to immerse myself in the unknowns I have yet to know. #UBCbucketlist
Now that school starts in less than a week, the campus is starting to buzz again, people actually exist…this is a slow preparation for when classes actually start and you have to maze your way through 100s and 100s of students going in every which way – something I am NOT looking forward to, but that hustle and bustle on Main Mall by the fountain in between each class, that’s one of the things that make UBC what it is, “a place of mind.” Oh, the irony.
Places to avoid for the next three weeks if you don’t want to get trampled on: Bookstore + SUB and its vicinities.
…to keep up with posts on this blog. But that’s not working out very well. Ultimately, I want to try to blog as much as possible in my fourth, and final year of my undergrad (EEEEEEEKKK!). Anyway, while we’re at it….I’ve been thinking about life, the future, etc. consistently for the past couple months. To be honest, it’s scary. High school used to be that “safe” place once upon a time…then university became that new “safe” place….and once you’re in the “real world” where’s your “safe” place? We keep getting introduced to these little portions of time that we come to define as our “safe” places…but they never seem to be constant. New experiences can be scary, and so many things can seem uncertain until you establish yourself within your goals and dreams.
I wanted the summer to go by as slow as possible…that’s not working out in my favour…July is almost over. I’ve lost all concept of time…because time just keeps fast forwarding. I know August will be a month of craziness and I’m not sure if I’m QUITE ready for that. It feels like just yesterday that I was a 17 year-old anxiously anticipating her residence assignment for her first year of university…and now look at me…I’m ‘dreading'(I could have used a better word) the start of my last year of undergrad. Although time has gone by fast, I’ve changed as a person and matured and experienced things I never knew I would. I’ve fought against getting consumed by the world and its desires, I’ve gotten lost in my own goals and dreams, and I’ve also tried to live the dreams of others while trying to find myself. It’s been a mixture of struggles and successes, sandwiched between emotions and memories. It’s a lot less scarier when you have the right people standing by your side, while you both experience similar roller coasters of experiences and emotions. There will always be uncertainties as you face the future, but you have to emphasize your life on what is certain and then slowly step into uncertainties as they slowly become stabilized certainties. Regardless of how alone you might feel when it comes to facing the future, you’re never alone and you need to have that fact solidified in your head – you and thousands….millions…billions… of others are in it together. In it to face life, one step at a time. I just need to keep reminding myself of that instead of getting so caught up about what’s going to happen 6 months from now. BREATHE. Think about the present. Living in the present allows you to prepare yourself for the future.
Now that it’s summer, I figured I should probably make a post on here….since last month was completely hectic. One may think that they have an excellent exam schedule….until they realize how much time they’ve wasted, resulting in very little time to study, hence the solution is to cram and study like you’ve never studied before. BUT, sometimes, that cramming thing actually works because you’re so determined and desperate to do well on your finals. And sometimes, you think you know nothing, but apparently all that cramming you did transferred useful information into your head, which translated in actually knowing things for your finals. Check please. My week of finals in a nutshell = a drunk blur (substituting alcohol with academic knowledge stuff). I don’t remember much except for pages and pages of notes and countless hours spent in pseudo-solitude…because it got to a point where all my friends were done with their exams and I was still going…(that was slightly depressing).
ENOUGH of that.
It’s summer, and I’m enjoying every minute of doing nothing related to school – although that won’t be lasting for too long since I’m doing summer school, because I just LOVE school that much and CANNOT get enough of it. *mylife*
I’m more excited than one would expect me to be, about the World Cup – yes, I actually watch soccer, be surprised.
I can’t believe that I’m actually done third year…this is mind blowing. Who knew I would make it this far, not me. It’s weird to me to think that just 3 years ago, I was still in grade 12….’ready’ to graduate from high school and ready to enter a new chapter of my life that would be called UBC. Now in approximately one year, I will be graduating from UBC – WWHHHAAAAAAAAAAT?!?!? I’m not even ready to talk about that. Be warned all you future first years, your undergrad goes by at the speed of light.
I can hands down say that this was probably one of the best years of my undergrad(apart from first year…really wasn’t too fond of second year, it was okay). This year was a year of learning and independence. This year gave me a sense of purpose I hadn’t felt before and shaped me as a person through experiences and the people I chose to surround myself with. Second term of this year was probably my favourite, I got closer to a lot of people and met lots of new people that I was really able to connect with on many levels – people that would be with me as I progressed. I think I matured a lot this past year, and well, maturing is a great thing in life – makes you feel old, but it’s real. As a result, my way of thinking has evolved and the way I approach situations and circumstances has also changed. It has allowed me to gain a broader perspective on life(actually), and actually apply the knowledge I’ve gained through various interactions. I hate to say this, but I almost feel like an adult…it’s weird. Looking back since I graduated high school when I was basically a ‘kid’, it boggles me how much I’ve changed as a person. Seventeen year old me and twenty year old me are NOT the same. We may ‘look’ the same, but we do not ‘think’ the same – experience changes people, and it’s weird, but in a cool way. Experience allows you to let go of people that probably shouldn’t stay in your life, and hold on to the ones that do belong by your side.
A lot has been happening, back to that crazy life with midterms and other things, but on the bright side, it’s reading break next week, YAY! We were also in for some crazy weather(inclusive of snow), but I think that warning has been lifted to a lighter weather system hitting Vancouver. And don’t get me started on the weather we’ve had for the past week or so…..below freezing temperatures with blue sky and sun to deceive you from bundling up, weeeooo – but I’m not complaining, it didn’t rain.
What’s been happening in February? Neknoms and Flappy Bird.
In my opinion, I think that this whole neknom drinking thing is completely out of hand and just stupid. Why would you post a video of yourself careless indulging in alcohol, to Facebook/Youtube/social media in general? What part of that seems any bit professional? If your future employer were to get their hands on that, I’m sure you’d get a job IMMEDIATELY. Not only that, but some people aren’t aware of what their limits are, and the consequences are dangerous, even fatal. A better series of ‘neknoms’ would be to do something that has purpose and would benefit other people, something like a ‘pay it forward’ act. If drinking alcohol can spread, why can’t good deeds also spread like wildfire? I’m sure you’d feel better doing something that would benefit another person rather than chugging 4 cans of beer in front of a camera(which isn’t benefitting your liver). Plus, drowning yourself in alcohol while sitting in front of a camera really isn’t that attractive.
Flappy Bird – R.I.P.
Who knew that a bird with wings(as opposed to birds without wings….?) flying through pipes could be so addicting? But if you got rid of the game due to rage, sadly, that’s the end of that.
It’s strange to think that January is almost over…this month is going by way too fast and I’m really struggling to keep up with school and life. :S But it’s okay! Reading break is only like three weeks away…and then before you know it, term two will be over. It’s gonna happen and you know it. This whole being in third year thing is really rather frightening to me…sure I’ve been a third year for like 5 months now, but as it’s slowly reaching my year of graduation(2015), I feel like there’s SO much to do in such a short period of time, hello crunch time. I had debated on taking an extra year….but then I wasn’t sure if it was worth it to take an extra year or half a year just to do electives(that would be cool to do, and relaxing, buuuut…I feel like I should probably carry on with my future goals relating to academia without ‘wasting’ time – disclaimer: I don’t think education is ever a ‘waste’.). I’ve also decided to take a much needed ‘Facebook break’….meaning I’ll only check Facebook as needed and not have it open on my tabs 24/7 with a burning urge to check it whenever I see a notification – because that’s the reality of it. Now that I’m in third year, I don’t have any course groups on Facebook that I feel the need to constantly check (what a life that was in first and second year, Facebook groups saved me, thank you to all the intelligent people that always monitored the groups better than TAs on Vista/Connect discussion boards.). And whatever else I have groups for on Facebook don’t need to be constantly monitored, yay. Facebook breaks really do do wonders for you..it’s refreshing. So that’s where it’s at now, and hopefully I start feeling better about everything.
Never have I been too fond of “growing up” and being an “adult”. I will forever be a kid at heart so don’t go planting weird “you’re an adult now” implications in my head. I was told that once you were done high school, you’d be entering the real world. WELL, I’ve been in this SHELTERED “real world” for the past two and a half years…yes, I call UBC/large universities in general, “sheltered” – UBC can be very ‘bubble-esque’. Once I’ve graduated from UBC, I can say I’ve ‘officially’ entered the real world, regardless of the fact that I’m going to do more school. BUT, in order to not completely feel lost in this so called real world, I need to find a job…or something of the sort that relates to what I want to do with my life – jobs aren’t easy to find(*scary*), but networking, that should be your hobby. Don’t be scared to put yourself out there, it does more good than harm, usually. Moving on…so a lot of my friends from high school are at that point in their lives where they’re moving into the next chapter of their life……that whole marriage business and starting fresh lifestyles with their significant other/spouse, it completely blows my mind how much people can change in a few short years. Sometimes it feels like I’m just a kid that goes to school, and then these friends of mine seem so much more mature, getting married and starting their long term lifestyles….I can’t do that. I’m still kinda figuring out my life and who I want to be and where I want to be, and how I can get there – baby steps, one corner of the puzzle at a time. The first 5-7 years after you graduate from high school are probably some of the most significantly life changing years of your life. So much can happen/change in the few years after you graduate relative to the change you experienced in the same amount of years, during grade school. As per usual, I say all this as if I’m some expert, like the whole ‘5-7 years’ thing, where on earth did I even pick up that statistic from? It has barely been 3 years since I’ve graduated from high school, but I can vouch that a TON has changed for me already, so obviously I’m a reliable source.
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How I would describe the first week back: ‘meh’. There wasn’t enough excitement.
I’m not entirely sure what it was, but this first week of term seemed rather unsatisfying….almost disorganized in a way – taking notes in class was a struggle, no motivation, my brain’s still on vacation. I’m positive the never ending rain has SOMETHING to do with it. I don’t quite know how I feel about my classes yet..I think I need to get used to them, not the content itself but the actual environment of my classes. It bothers me how I can’t pinpoint what exactly is ‘off’…but maybe it’ll get better. I’m rather surprised that I’m actually getting to my morning classes ON TIME, if not earlier *shocking* – I think I’ve halved the amount of time it takes for me to get ready in the morning, less dillydallying.
Tips for future students, especially incoming first years, DO NOT buy books for second term at the end of August/beginning of September from older students… WAIT for your booklists to come out in late December. Why? Because SEVERAL first years this year bought the ‘General Chemistry’ textbook for Chem 123 at the beginning of the school year….and now they’ve realized that that book is of no good for them as the Chem department decided to use a brand new book! Lesson learned? I sure hope so.
They say whatever you do on January 1st, you’ll continue doing every single day that year….let’s see if that proves to be true…
After much reflective contemplation, I’ve decided that 2013 wasn’t really a stand out year. It was a somewhat emotional year where I partially lost myself, then slowly got back onto the right track and re-gained the confidence that I once lost, or maybe never even had. I welcomed people into my life that probably should have stayed out(boooo!), I unintentionally pushed people away that I should have pulled closer(another boooo!) …but at the same time, I allowed people into my life that helped set my life where it should be and made me realize who’s welcome, and who’s not(yay!). I’ve constantly realized how important it is to surround yourself with people that genuinely care about you and want to help you move forward and bring up your confidence, not knock down your self-esteem. I’ve also had encounters with people who allegedly claim to be on your side, and allegedly CLAIM that they’re always looking out for you and always want the best for you when really, they’re just trying to make themselves look good with underlying ill-minded, selfish, backstabbing intentions – honey, this ain’t middle school. I highly encourage everyone to stay away from people like that, trust me, it makes life so much better to relieve yourself of that, plus it’s probably better for your health.
On a side note in reference to this whole blogging thing, it’s getting so much harder to conceal my identity…I feel like I talk about a lot of things to people which means I most likely wouldn’t post about it on here..which is my explanation for posting A LOT less than I used to…bittersweet. In first year I would blog about first year courses and what life on residence was like and a lot of events that were very much geared towards first year students….now that I’m in third year, my courses are more specialized and it’s seemingly much harder to talk about things(school,involvement, life, etc) in a general way that wouldn’t reveal who I am.
Anyway, putting everything that should stay behind, behind; here’s to a fresh start and a new year filled with new friends to meet, old friends to cherish, new experiences to live, new memories to make, and great things to come.
LOVE. Never disappointed.
Nothing. Which is what I’ve been up to tonight, mainly because the weather outside tells me I should stay inside, and I would have been productive(like watching pointless videos online and figuring out some course stuff for next term and next year and just surfing the net about life) buuuuttt it took forever to update my computer. I have a surplus of excitement over the fact that I just changed the colour of my highlight on my computer to turquoise from the green that it used to be… Anyway, while I was waiting for my computer to update itself, I made some paper snowflakes, it’s therapeutic I tell you!
Happy halfway through November! I am officially done with midterms and labs and whatever other “major” things I had to do for my courses. It’s been a trek of an academic journey this term, I can’t remember the last time I was midterm-free. It’s like a huge weight has been taken off of my shoulders and I now have time to actually take care of the other things I’ve been meaning to do (ie., relax a little more than usual, not be frantically frenzied 24/7, learn about the wooorlldd, and oh yeah, trying to find some sort of a job for this coming summer). I’ve been thinking about research quite a bit lately(I would have laughed at the idea of me doing research if you had asked me this 6 months ago – although I don’t want a career doing research, because that’s just not me), but I haven’t fully been able to focus on it to foster a specific idea as to what I’d be interested IN researching(although I do have a VAGUE idea of the general field that I’m interested in). Over the past two months I have learned a great deal about myself, and my abilities and this has really helped me to figure out what I truly want to do. The general theme of what I’ve wanted to do has been the same for years and years, but it’s been as of recent that I’ve been able to shape the specifics. It’s like all the small pieces are coming together and slowly forming a larger picture, which is absolutely excellent. FACT: blasting One Direction while studying to block out all the background noise from people and whatever else is annoying, absolutely BRILLIANT #noshame #theymotivateme