It’s strange to think that January is almost over…this month is going by way too fast and I’m really struggling to keep up with school and life. :S But it’s okay! Reading break is only like three weeks away…and then before you know it, term two will be over. It’s gonna happen and you know it. This whole being in third year thing is really rather frightening to me…sure I’ve been a third year for like 5 months now, but as it’s slowly reaching my year of graduation(2015), I feel like there’s SO much to do in such a short period of time, hello crunch time. I had debated on taking an extra year….but then I wasn’t sure if it was worth it to take an extra year or half a year just to do electives(that would be cool to do, and relaxing, buuuut…I feel like I should probably carry on with my future goals relating to academia without ‘wasting’ time – disclaimer: I don’t think education is ever a ‘waste’.). I’ve also decided to take a much needed ‘Facebook break’….meaning I’ll only check Facebook as needed and not have it open on my tabs 24/7 with a burning urge to check it whenever I see a notification – because that’s the reality of it. Now that I’m in third year, I don’t have any course groups on Facebook that I feel the need to constantly check (what a life that was in first and second year, Facebook groups saved me, thank you to all the intelligent people that always monitored the groups better than TAs on Vista/Connect discussion boards.). And whatever else I have groups for on Facebook don’t need to be constantly monitored, yay. Facebook breaks really do do wonders for you..it’s refreshing. So that’s where it’s at now, and hopefully I start feeling better about everything.
Never have I been too fond of “growing up” and being an “adult”. I will forever be a kid at heart so don’t go planting weird “you’re an adult now” implications in my head. I was told that once you were done high school, you’d be entering the real world. WELL, I’ve been in this SHELTERED “real world” for the past two and a half years…yes, I call UBC/large universities in general, “sheltered” – UBC can be very ‘bubble-esque’. Once I’ve graduated from UBC, I can say I’ve ‘officially’ entered the real world, regardless of the fact that I’m going to do more school. BUT, in order to not completely feel lost in this so called real world, I need to find a job…or something of the sort that relates to what I want to do with my life – jobs aren’t easy to find(*scary*), but networking, that should be your hobby. Don’t be scared to put yourself out there, it does more good than harm, usually. Moving on…so a lot of my friends from high school are at that point in their lives where they’re moving into the next chapter of their life……that whole marriage business and starting fresh lifestyles with their significant other/spouse, it completely blows my mind how much people can change in a few short years. Sometimes it feels like I’m just a kid that goes to school, and then these friends of mine seem so much more mature, getting married and starting their long term lifestyles….I can’t do that. I’m still kinda figuring out my life and who I want to be and where I want to be, and how I can get there – baby steps, one corner of the puzzle at a time. The first 5-7 years after you graduate from high school are probably some of the most significantly life changing years of your life. So much can happen/change in the few years after you graduate relative to the change you experienced in the same amount of years, during grade school. As per usual, I say all this as if I’m some expert, like the whole ‘5-7 years’ thing, where on earth did I even pick up that statistic from? It has barely been 3 years since I’ve graduated from high school, but I can vouch that a TON has changed for me already, so obviously I’m a reliable source.
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This week has already started off on a better note compared to last week(my mood and no rain, definitely has a positive correlation going on), I just WAS NOT feelin’ the whole school thing back then. I also decided I’d be a tad bit more social in my classes and be willing to talk to new people instead of being anti-social(like I said, I wasn’t feelin’ it last week to make friends or anything of the sort). One thing that makes me feel conscious about making friends in classes is when you have clicker questions: I don’t want them to think I’m a complete idiot. Let’s be honest…I don’t always….ever….95% of the time pay attention in some of my classes…I kind of drift off into my own world..or write stuff down without really processing it in my head…and then BAM! *clicker after clicker* and I just sit there with a derpy expression hoping that I clicked in with the right answer/the person beside me doesn’t ask me what I put. Usually the people beside me either think I’m stupid OR that I’m an EXTREMELY slow reader…. “what did you put?” “ohh..uhhh….hmmm…I actually haven’t finished reading the question yet” …. seriously, that rarely works in your favour when the question is a sentence long with like 10 words…. and then the OTHER scenario would be “hmmm..I’m not sure, what did YOU put?”- that’s how you socialize. Remember, clicker questions are your gateway excuse to sparking up some kind of a conversation with that cute girl or guy in your class, so take it and run with it – if you make a fool out of yourself, it’s okay, just laugh, because foolish funny is cute. 😉 So go on, make some friends in your classes, don’t hesitate to initiate conversation, who knows, maybe the person next to you wants to talk to you as badly as you want to talk to them, but they’re just shy, like you! You could very well make someone’s day by just talking to them, making someone else happy, makes you happy! Yay!
How I would describe the first week back: ‘meh’. There wasn’t enough excitement.
I’m not entirely sure what it was, but this first week of term seemed rather unsatisfying….almost disorganized in a way – taking notes in class was a struggle, no motivation, my brain’s still on vacation. I’m positive the never ending rain has SOMETHING to do with it. I don’t quite know how I feel about my classes yet..I think I need to get used to them, not the content itself but the actual environment of my classes. It bothers me how I can’t pinpoint what exactly is ‘off’…but maybe it’ll get better. I’m rather surprised that I’m actually getting to my morning classes ON TIME, if not earlier *shocking* – I think I’ve halved the amount of time it takes for me to get ready in the morning, less dillydallying.
Tips for future students, especially incoming first years, DO NOT buy books for second term at the end of August/beginning of September from older students… WAIT for your booklists to come out in late December. Why? Because SEVERAL first years this year bought the ‘General Chemistry’ textbook for Chem 123 at the beginning of the school year….and now they’ve realized that that book is of no good for them as the Chem department decided to use a brand new book! Lesson learned? I sure hope so.
THAT weekend referring to the weekend before classes commence. *sob*. Actually though, going back to school is always bittersweet, a part of me just wants to stay at home and do everything that’s remotely close to lazy….but another part of me wants to go back to UBC and learn stuff and see friends and be back in Vancouver and get back to routine because any more time at home CANNOT be good for my health at this rate. I’ve been getting 8-10 hours of sleep DAILY(I’m not one that needs excessive sleep, 8 hours is a pretty good amount for me)….I’m getting so much sleep that I’m finding it hard to FALL asleep at night – at least I can say that I’ve gone beyond catching up on all my lost sleep during finals(not that I really lost THAT much sleep…I did get AT LEAST 6 hours of sleep daily which was better than a lot of people). As per always, I’ve started making little mental resolutions about how I WILL do well on my first round of midterms(usually I tend to screw the first round up…even though I ALWAYS go in saying I won’t repeat that mistake). I’m always intrigued by the first week of classes, just to see who I know will end up in my classes, who the profs are, what components make up the course, AND most important…who my ‘new’ friends will be – because meeting new people is great, so put on your social faces.
*and now I’ll get back to packing up all my stuff*
They say whatever you do on January 1st, you’ll continue doing every single day that year….let’s see if that proves to be true…
After much reflective contemplation, I’ve decided that 2013 wasn’t really a stand out year. It was a somewhat emotional year where I partially lost myself, then slowly got back onto the right track and re-gained the confidence that I once lost, or maybe never even had. I welcomed people into my life that probably should have stayed out(boooo!), I unintentionally pushed people away that I should have pulled closer(another boooo!) …but at the same time, I allowed people into my life that helped set my life where it should be and made me realize who’s welcome, and who’s not(yay!). I’ve constantly realized how important it is to surround yourself with people that genuinely care about you and want to help you move forward and bring up your confidence, not knock down your self-esteem. I’ve also had encounters with people who allegedly claim to be on your side, and allegedly CLAIM that they’re always looking out for you and always want the best for you when really, they’re just trying to make themselves look good with underlying ill-minded, selfish, backstabbing intentions – honey, this ain’t middle school. I highly encourage everyone to stay away from people like that, trust me, it makes life so much better to relieve yourself of that, plus it’s probably better for your health.
On a side note in reference to this whole blogging thing, it’s getting so much harder to conceal my identity…I feel like I talk about a lot of things to people which means I most likely wouldn’t post about it on here..which is my explanation for posting A LOT less than I used to…bittersweet. In first year I would blog about first year courses and what life on residence was like and a lot of events that were very much geared towards first year students….now that I’m in third year, my courses are more specialized and it’s seemingly much harder to talk about things(school,involvement, life, etc) in a general way that wouldn’t reveal who I am.
Anyway, putting everything that should stay behind, behind; here’s to a fresh start and a new year filled with new friends to meet, old friends to cherish, new experiences to live, new memories to make, and great things to come.