What Am I Even Doing..

HAPPY LAST DAY OF JUNE! It hit the mid-high 30s today, so incredibly hot. I don’t like it.  It just makes me feel sticky and gross and tired. I could barely fall asleep last night due to the lack of a fan in my room, but tonight, that shouldn’t be a problem. Since I’ve had SOOOO much time on my hands and don’t want to turn into a roasted version of me, I’ve been staying inside watching random TV shows and movies. Don’t worry, I’m still getting a fair share of Vitamin D. I watched Spring Breakers this afternoon….all I can say is WHAT.THE.FADGE. Why was that movie so popular with so many positive reviews….? It’s honestly one of the weirdest movies I’ve seen in my life. I kept questioning why I was watching it and couldn’t help but wonder if those actors were actually drunk/high during the whole movie.. I think I lost respect for the main actresses to be quite honest. I’m STILL questioning myself, it was a waste of life. I would never have wanted to pay to see that movie, EVER. 

This Is It. 2 YEARS, WHUT.

Well, happy 2 years of blogging TO ME. WordPress had to remind me, but I did remember that my “bloggeversary” was coming up shortly! I’m officially done with summer school, time to enjoy my summer regardless of how my final may or may not have gone. :S EEK. I can’t believe I’ve been blogging for 2 years..it boggles my mind to think I’ve kept up with this for so long. I also thank each and every person, spammer and non-spammer for visiting my blog and reading little slices of my life; and for those of you who leave a little piece of your mind with a comment, I enjoy reading every single one of them. I apologize if I bored you to death or irritated you with my ramblings, but what can a girl do? If you’ve ever considered blogging, I suggest you go through with it, and if you keep up with it, you won’t regret it a single bit! 🙂 

So Much To Do, So Little Time!

I couldn’t get anymore cliché. My time here at UBC for the summer term is wrapping up. After that, I will see UBC again in September, HELLO THIRD YEAR. *mind blown*. I would go back to being  a first year university noob in a heartbeat, it’s the best. Anyway. I hate leaving. I hate goodbyes. I just don’t like them. NO NO NO NO. They make me feel like one sad, pouty kitten. Usually I’m so sad that I become emotionless, is that possible? Catch my drift? Yay or nay? Whenever I think about goodbyes, I think about the future, like graduation, when everyone splits paths, what am I going to do then?!?! Who knows where I’m going to end up in two years… such a short period of time.. AGH. I really need to stop letting my mind drift into the future when it has things in the NOW that it must deal with. Now, to study, or watch the night away with YouTube videos/TV shows…huummm.. What a responsible and determined university student would do vs. what I would do…  Heh. 

I Miss Me

This blog title probably sounds overly conceited, but I promise you, it’s not meant to be taken like that. I meant ‘me’ as in the blogging me. It feels like ages since I’ve proper complained about something or gone on some ranty tangent on here. Perhaps that’s a good thing, or maybe I’m just keeping everything bottled up inside of me…OR I was just really really sick and had no time for life..hmm, all the possibilities. First term of summer school is coming to an end and here I am blogging instead of having a late night study session.. OOPSIES…my GPA, not yours. Actually, I do have something to complain about, but it’s about a certain ‘department/service’ at UBC…but I’d rather not publicize anymore than that. All I can say is that I’m not the only one that feels that way. Please, let your imagination go wild and think about what it may be. I’m also not sure how much I dig the new layout of WordPress…I think it’s decent though. Also… Instagram now has video (sorry for being a couple hours late on that update) and Vine is now said to lose traffic? Aww..I’ll still be a fan of Best Vines on Facebook, don’t you worry about it. I absolutely love UBC in the summer, I like how there are less people and the whole “scenery” of UBC looks different and more “green”. I appreciate the beauty of this campus every single day I walk through it, even in the rain – might I add that today’s weather was absolutely DISGUSTING..walking under trees while it’s windy and rainy… no shelter. And the roof of the ESB..do they not have proper gutters? It’s like a frickin’ waterfall when you walk under it. In saying that though, I’d rather the weather be like this when I have to study rather than have it be super sunny. Yes, the weather really would affect my GPA. Coure registration is in a week or two, I don’t even want to think about that until next week when I’m done with summer school, and screw you fourth years for filling up half the seats in my future classes >.< There are so many courses out there that I WANT to take, but can’t due to credit restrictions/not having enough time to fit in those courses due to mandatory courses. I know I can take 5 years to graduate and completely fulfill every desire to take random courses…but I’m really not one to flow with the “5 is the new 4” lingo. Anywho, I should probably go procrastinate and watch some TV show that I really shouldn’t be watching since I have to like, you know, study. 

situations change and people drift away.

The past couple weeks have been emotionally hectic to say the least. I’ve come to many conclusions regarding ‘life’, and my perspective of it. It has finally been drilled into my head that you cannot please everyone that crosses your path, no matter how hard you try. There are some elements in the universe that are apparently completely against you and another person’s roads aligning in that perfect desirable line. So what do you do about it? Nothing. Usually I’m not one to give up in such situations, but I’ve learned. You must do absolutely nothing and let it go. No matter how hard you try to come to that alignment, it just won’t, and for as long as you keep trying, you may be wasting time and missing out on something that is meant to align with you. I’m not entirely sure why I had a mental picture of the planets and the moon while explaining that..maybe it’s because I can’t get over the whole Justin Bieber going to space thing… whaaaat? Anyway, back to my ‘life discoveries’ – along with not being able to please everyone, this goes hand in hand with that, but you cannot make EVERYONE happy either. Sometimes while you’re out trying to make someone happy, you’ll realize that you yourself aren’t happy. At least that’s how I’ve felt recently. Trying to make everyone in my books happy resulted in me being unhappy. They say you should surround yourself with people that bring out the best in you, and that make you happy and to trash the ones that don’t bring out the best in you – I think it’s time to apply that. I hate being that girl that’s “b*tchy” to certain people, but sometimes, people’s actions bring out the worst in me, and I don’t like that, so my solution: get rid of them. If they’re causing negative vibes, then they’re not worth your time. Sometimes situations really do change and you’re forced to drift away from the people that you were once close with. This forced drifting could be a mutually beneficial thing, as well as an opportunity to move on with your life and get rid of the extra baggage that’s holding you down. No one deserves to have self-hatred as a reflection of other people’s actions, if this is the cause of self-hate, you MUST get those people out of your life, and that is what I’ve learned to do.