Madness Begins.

Midterms midterms midterms midterms. Happens EVERY term, things seem to be going smoothly and you’re all like “I’ve got this this time around” — and then university comes and re-hits you in the face and just says “JUST KIDDING”. Assignments, projects, exams, application deadlines, etc just start coming at you from out of nowhere! This makes you want to take cover and hide under a little safety blanket. I also noticed something recently, no one seems to leave the library…everyone sits in the same spot…every single day…and NOBODY LEAVES..seriously, do people just live there? HOW CAN YOU POSSIBLY STUDY FOR 8 STRAIGHT HOURS AND STILL BE SANE?! 

frazzled and frenzied. 

Innocent thoughts on life, life, life @ 2 a.m. on a Saturday.

Ever had an encounter with that mental question where you take a moment to ask yourself if you’re content/happy with life and everything going on in yours? If you haven’t, maybe you should. It’s always good to take a few moments to do a little personal reflection of the now. Ever feel like you’re at that point where you feel like you should be elsewhere, living out your full potential instead of being trapped in the place that you are, a place that’s potentially cramping your potential? I’m certain that I’m not the only one that feels that way.
Sometimes you just feel like you stick out like a sore thumb, in the crowd, while other times, you feel like you blend in perfectly – just as well as when blue and yellow get mixed together to make green.
Sometimes you feel like you need to get away from where you are and just be somewhere else. 
Sometimes you feel alone, even though you know you’re not.
Sometimes you feel incomplete, as if something’s missing.
Sometimes you wonder what that something is.
Sometimes you feel like fear is holding you back.
Sometimes you feel like you’re not good enough. 

Sometimes you wonder if you are who you wanted to become.
Sometimes you wonder what more there is out there for you that you have not yet discovered. 
Sometimes you wonder if where you are right now is where you’re supposed to be. 
Sometimes you wonder what you could have done differently.
Sometimes you wonder if it’s too late for change.

Sometimes you wonder if life has more to offer you, or maybe you have more to offer to life? It’s YOUR life, so make it YOURS.
Sometimes you wonder if you’ve made an impact on those around you, or are you just living a routine life, day-to-day?
Sometimes you wonder what life would be like if that one thing hadn’t happened, or maybe if that one thing HAD happened. 
Sometimes you wonder how you’re supposed to know if you’re doing it right. 
Sometimes you wonder if you’re truly happy on the inside, or if you’re just showing that you are, on the outside.
Sometimes you wonder what your life would be like if you were anywhere but where you are currently. Would you be happier?
Sometimes you wonder if a fresh start is worth it.
Sometimes you wonder if a fresh start is needed.
Sometimes you wonder if the first step to release your potential is a fresh start. 
And sometimes, you wonder if that risk to take the first step for a fresh start, is worth it. 

How many times in life are we given the opportunity for a fresh start? Are there limitations? Or is it completely up to us? Are we given a choice to determine how much we are willing to invest into a fresh start? You never know until you try. And to tie it all together, I figured this was an appropriate song choice. It brings back memories of a piano recital I had participated in when I was in grade 6 or 7; I ended up playing this song and the emotions that were gushing out of me while I was playing this piece cannot be described, but only felt when listening to it being played. This song means a great deal to me and I feel like it’s been relevant all throughout my life. Sometimes we need to spread our wings, and take that risk and just breakaway – but we can never say goodbye to the things that shaped us.

‘I’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I’ll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won’t forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway’

EDIT: And a post like this WOULD be my 300th post. Go figure. 

Imma be flyin’ with time.

The SLC was over the weekend and let me tell ya, it was FANTASTIC. Absolutely amazing, all the people presenting, attending, and making it happen, were amazing, just everything about it was amazing. Go be the author of your story, and make it unique, and make it yours. I am extremely grateful for having had the opportunity to get involved with it, it was SO worth it. 
The course drop deadline(without a W standing) was yesterday for those of you that care. I don’t know about you…but personally speaking, I think it takes more than a week and a half to figure out whether you like a course or not… I mean if it was a T/Th class, you only had 3 classes to figure out if you wanted to be in that class or not….and the first class barely counts as a full lecture…so your decision would be based on like, 2.5 lectures technically; and if it’s a MWF class, you had like barely 6 days…more like 5. My first few midterms are just less than two and a half weeks away, crazy. #notready #hashtaggingonablog #what. Has anyone else noticed the fact that they turn the fountain on, when it rains…and not when it’s dry/not precipitating? Or is that just me and my imagination? Apparently the Fraser Health people have officially declared this whole influenza(look at me being all fancy) outbreak as a health hazard, should I be concerned?  I feel bad for people that commute…I mean the 99 in itself should be considered as a health hazard…piling on like a hundred people onto a bus, where they’re all breathing the same air…that definitely cannot be good for you. You know what I appreciate?  Advisors and professors/teaching staff that actually outwardly show that they genuinely care about your success in your university career. That gives me hope, and sometimes a little bit of hope is all you need to get on with your life. So, thank you for that. Don’t mind my broken thought ramblings…SLC –> course withdrawal –> midterms –> the fountain –> influenza outbreak –> advisors/faculty members. 

RandomRamblings: catching up on life

Every now and then it’s good to take a few moments to debrief, you know, like sit down and reflect on life. 
Random fact of the day: I have a slight obsession with the song Beauty And A Beat, and not so much the original but the majority of the covers of that song. Although I do find the original catchy…and I’m not a particular fan of either Bieber or Minaj. I always go on about how much I don’t like Nicki Minaj, but then every time she releases a song, I’m all over it. They’re just so catchy… 
The Student Leadership Conference is only 2 days away..if you’re going, BE EXCITED…if you’re not going..GO SIGN UP! TIME IS TICKING. And then, BE EXCITED. 
The amount of procrastinating that I’m doing right now is mind blowing…..but I really wanted to write random ramblings about random ramblingable things! 
I don’t know if it’s just me or if “negativity” on the internet has strikingly increased in the past 2 months among teenagers. Or maybe I’ve just been noticing it recently? OOORRR maybe it’s just because I’ve been on tumblr too much in the past 2 months and I keep reading super negative/sad posts everywhere…. why can’t people just be happy? maybe have a tad bit more optimism in their views? One thing that I’ve recently “re”learned is that, when negativity surrounds you, it can deeply affect you in a VERY negative way. Been there, done that, never want to go back. Also, sometimes you need to worry about yourself and keeping yourself happy before you try to go about and try to make OTHERS happy. If you continuously go out of your way to constantly make someone else happy, and you’re not taking care of yourself, you will exhaust yourself, and even lose yourself. As selfish as it may sound, you need to make sure that you, personally(mentally,physically,spiritually,emotionally,etc), can afford to invest time and effort into the well being of others. If you can’t, then you’re not helping yourself, and you may not be helping the other to the best of your ability. So, always take care of yourself. Don’t get too preoccupied with helping others(this probably sounds TERRIBLE…I’m all for helping others, really, I am!), you need to make sure that you are in the right state to do so, otherwise you’re causing unnecessary stress upon yourself. Nobody wants an extra side of stress on their plate if it’s avoidable!
It’s freezing outside. There’s even a sub zero temperature warning in place for the next couple days – I didn’t even know those existed.

:First Week:Second Term:Year Two:

Happy belated new year. YAY! Writing 2013 still feels super unnatural to me, probably because I didn’t prepare myself for it considering the world was supposed to end in 2012, but that didn’t happen now, did it? First week back was good, I liked it, minus the fact that every other school started later than we did, good going UBC. Rescheduled exams are taking place today, you poor poor students. The rain has officially returned to Vancouver, but at least the first two days of classes were nice weather-wise. I really like my classes this term and I know a ton of people in most of my classes, it’s always nice to see familiar faces. All my profs are pretty great too, for the most part, I’m only iffy about one prof….but he’s okay. I have also now understood the chili pepper “hotness” rating on ratemyprof. Them raters don’t lie. Oh no they don’t. If you get what I’m saying. 😉 You’re probably thinking “ew”, but seriously, I don’t blame you, I would be thinking the same thing, but once you seem them, you can’t deny it. Oh my oh my oh my. Anyway, it’s the beginning of term and everyone’s starting off the term with extreme optimism saying how they’re going to be reviewing this and that and get straight As and all that good stuff. The motivation level of people around here is as high as Mt. Everest at this current moment, hopefully it doesn’t drop down to the level of Mariana’s Trench within the next few weeks. Gotta stay high(figuratively or literally? the first one preferably, but take it any which way you’d like). Overall this week has been completely exhausting, selling textbooks = A PAIN. I feel like I’ve been running around meeting up with first years to sell my books, I’m really glad that basically all of my first year textbooks ended up getting sold considering how little effort I put in to finding buyers…but still, it’s just a pain and I feel like I don’t want to do this again for another year!