My Mind = A Place of Complete Chaos.

I think I’m confused. My mind is a cluttered mess of academics + personal stuff + feelings (stuff and feelings, yes). I’m a girl that gets lost in her thoughts rather easily. Sometimes most of the time, that’s a problem. I over think things that shouldn’t be over thought, and under think things that shouldn’t be under thought – imperfection at its best. Half the time I don’t know what I want, and when I know what I want, I refuse to go after it because I’m stubborn like that…or because I’m afraid of my own feelings. I know life isn’t about living in fear, it’s all about taking risks and not being afraid to go after what you want and whatnot..but that’s easier said than done. And then there are those instances when some things feel right when they’re “wrong”. Anyway, my  mind is actually too chaotic to write a decent post. Life’s complex. THE END. 

it’s never the “right” time, that’s why it’s called a risk.

Can It Be Friday Already? Please.

I’m basically drowning in Organic Chem right now. I’m basically turning into a semi-social hermit (oxymoronic? yes)..basically I talk to my friends that are in my classes and hang out with them and study with them, and almost semi-ignore(that’s a harsh word) everyone else…except a couple people — that probably made no sense. Anyway, there are so many Sapling questions to do, it’s insane. I love the fact that they’re giving us so many questions(not complaining), but I wish the due dates were a bit farther away from each other…just my opinion. Most of the stuff we’re doing right now is review from Chem 123, but I honestly didn’t learn as much of the organic part as I should have, last year….so that’s a tad bit annoying. Plus, the midterm is a week away…YAY. My first midterm WOULD be my “hardest” course. I feel like I’m neglecting all my other subjects because of O-Chem – mistake. Random suggestion – if you have the chance to take Chem 233 in the summer session – I would STRONGLY encourage it, you can do SOO much better if you’re just doing one course, and Chem 233 is a course that needs a lot of attention. Everyone that I know that did Chem 233 in the summer did exceptionally well, so give it a thought. I’m also slightly behind with writing my research proposal for English…..whoops. On the bright side….I had the most productive one and a half hours of my life today(those moments you impress yourself are definitely ones that should be cherished forever)….and tomorrow is FRIDAY. There definitely needs to be more Fridays in a week – but that would probably potentially bring up some major decrease in liver functionality in the student population. Alsooo, I feel like the walking paths are getting narrower and narrower each day with construction fences being moved around….and the sprinklers actually spray people – that’s a problem. And don’t forget to check out the pretty rad song below.

getting through the school week. (click gif for source)


One of Those Dumb Days

I woke up at a ridiculously early time this morning. And went to bed late. Total amount of sleep in the last two nights: 9.5-10.5 hours..aka..not enough – exams haven’t even STARTED! 😥 I can barely keep my eyes open right now…I’ve reached a point that goes beyond sleep deprived. Sleep deprivation leads to me doing dumb things.
#1 – I woke up, rolled over, and fell off of my bed. That definitely woke me up. Great start to the morning, really. 
#2 – Completely zoned out in both my classes today. I literally have no idea what happened, it probably wouldn’t have made a difference if I hadn’t shown up for class.
#3- Tried to troll someone via text and then ended up sending texts to the wrong person, making things “awkward”.
#4 -Took a rather long route to get to my residence from the SUB(something that should have taken maybe 8 minutes, ended up taking 20)…I ended up going in a circle, for no apparent reason.
#5- I learned that I couldn’t drink(no not alcohol) and walk at the same time, and looked like an idiot TRYING to accomplish that huge feat.
#6 – Opened the door to get into my residence, looked back and saw someone behind me, closed the door and kept walking….30 seconds later, I realized that I had basically shut the door on someone…so I walked back and opened it for that person, the person clearly thought I was nuts.
#7 – Somehow managed to get soap in my mouth.
#8 – Practically ignored almost everyone that was talking to me today because I was completely zoning people out.
#9- Managed to burn food in the microwave, which is just really dumb in general.
#10 – Homework-wise, I’ve accomplished next to nothing.
#11- A strange bug just bit me. I hate bugs. 

 They aren’t that dumb. But I feel dumb. I just need sleep. I’ve been too busy. I need a hug. Time for comfort food.

Life’s Little Instruction Book – ‘When you see someone sitting alone on a bench, make it a point to speak to them’. 

Story Of My Life.

Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swamps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists. It is real. It is possible. It is yours.

WEEKEND!! Who’s excited?!

Well I know I’M excited! I just needed to get this week over and done with. There has just been so much going on and I’m not quite on school mode just yet. I say I’ll be pseudo back in school mode by the end of this weekend – or I at least hope so. There are always so many things going on in the first few weeks of school, it’s hard to really keep up with, uh, life. To be honest, I don’t even remember the first few weeks of my first year at UBC(which was last year), and NO, it’s not because of alcohol that it’s all a blur. SUS(Science Undergraduate Society) Elections are happening next week, sooooo go vote it up for the lovely candidates that are running ‘cuz they deserve a vote from you! They really really do!
Anyway, back to weekends. Weekends are catch up days in my opinion. You get two whole days in a week, that’s ALMOST 30% of the week,  to just catch up on life, school, sleep, friends, work, etc. It’s kind of nice, you know? I’ve noticed that since I’ve been at UBC, I have learned to appreciate A LOT of things, some being: mainly sleep, home-cooked meals, my bed at home, and so on.

Life’s Little Instruction Book – “Life is short. Eat more pancakes and fewer rice cakes.” – I actually plan on having a pancake breakfast tomorrow, I deserve it. 😀

Two Posts In One Day, What?

I can’t believe I’m taking time out of my precious studying time to do this post…this is the second post of the day, CRAZY. In case you weren’t aware, I can be kind of a nerd sometimes, but I don’t really care, I’m just going to FLAUNT IT. First thing on my mind…uhhmm…Carly Rae Jepsen has a new song, it’s called This Kiss, it came out a few days ago, since her new album is coming out soon! It definitely isn’t AS catchy as Call Me Maybe, which doesn’t surprise me since that’s a hard one to beat. In saying that, the chorus IS rather catchy, but not as much as Call Me Maybe. A lot of people say that this song has more of a 80s feel to it, I’m not sure if I COMPLETELY agree with that, but each to his own. Second thing on my mind(it should be first though, right?). ACADEMICS. Even though it’s only the second week of school, things have started at full pace(readings, quizzes, assignments, etc.). I think so far the class that I really like is Biology 200, which is a tad bit surprising considering the fact that I wasn’t too fond of the two Bio courses I took in first year (Bio 112 and Bio 121). Bio 200 is all about the cell, which is what I like, I really like learning about the cell components and what each structure does rather than learn about prokaryotic cell processes and such. Eukaryotes is where it’s at. NERD ALERT. Plus, my prof is great, so far.Who knew 1.5 hours of Bio in one stretch could be “intriguing” (yay for Tuesday/Thursday classes). Now…as for Chem 233, hmm. I WANT to like the class, I really do. I don’t know how I feel about it yet, although I really like the textbook and find it extremely useful and easy to understand. This Klein textbook is much better than both of the texts that were used in Chem 121/123. On that note, the CHIRP grew in size this year, it’s like 3 times the size as the one from last year…sucks for all you first years taking Chem..hehehe. Oh well, you’ll be more educated. 😛 Anyway, back to Chem 233, the textbook is a great resource and I’m actually UNDERSTANDING what is being said in it, that’s a first. 😀 

Life Calls For A Little Spontaneity

Sometimes I wish my life was a reality TV show. I’m not saying that my life is OVER THE TOP exciting, although sometimes it is FULL of surprises….but imagine how cool it would be to have a camera following you around, documenting your everyday life. Sometimes random things happen in our everyday lives and it makes us think. Maybe it’s a certain social interaction that catches you off guard…and it makes you wonder about simple things, or complex things. I’m aware that I’m being a tad bit vague, but vague is what I shall be for the time being.
There’s a book called Life’s Little Instruction Book by H. Jackson Brown, it has a bunch of random “thoughts” I guess, about living a happy and rewarding life. Most of the thoughts are simple things, but doing some of those things really does make you happy. I have been thinking lately(since I wasn’t thinking before), there is so much to be thankful for in our lives, and sometimes we let the small things bring us down. We have to learn to have fun when we have the chance and the opportunity to. Be young, wild, and free – remember? One of the things in that book is “Be the first to say, ‘Hello'”. Doesn’t that sound simple? Sometimes you can make a person’s day by saying a simple Hello. People like being noticed, don’t they? This could honestly brighten someone’s day. Another one from the book is this “Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt, but it’s the only way to live life completely”. Almost ALL of us are afraid of getting hurt at some point…but give it your all and see what happens. Don’t hold back. Holding back could break or make it. I think I’ll probably post more of these little things from this book in future posts. All in all, I’m just saying that we should all try to be happy and appreciate all that we have and not be upset because of the small unsettling things in our lives.