Yeah, so I told myself repeatedly, that I would take a break and not do a post today. BUT. I just felt the need to. Blogging shan’t take over my life..whatevz.
Sometimes…I feel as if I am QUEEN of awkward moments. Other times…I just laugh at people when they tell me stories of THEIR awkward moments. 😀 The most recent ‘awkward’ moment that I have been facing, quite frequently, is when I’m driving. I mean it’s not THAT awkward..but to an extent it makes me feel a bit self-conscious while I drive now. Every time I’m driving…there is always AT LEAST one person in another vehicle that smiles/waves at me…and I get extremely confused and linger on the thought of whether I knew them or not. Like, were they just being FRIENDLY and smiling at me? OR do I know them…? ‘Cuz if I knew them…then I’d feel bad for not acknowledging them. Same goes for when I’m just walking, and I pass someone that smiles at me….I somehow manage to get too distracted to even return a proper smile back at them…I feel so bad sometimes!! Usually I find that it’s old men that smile (as creepy as that sounds…I’m not trying to sound creepy AT ALL!!) …I guess they’re all happy and go lucky whenever they’re taking a stroll? Haha. 😀
So yeah, I just got my hair cut recently…like a couple days ago. And I got like 2 inches off…as much as I hate to admit it, my hair is almost like a security blanket..I’m very attached to it. 😛 My hair IS pretty long, but 2 inches seemed like a lot to me, but I needed to get the ends a bit freshened up…frequent heat usage does not do good things for your hair. But yeah, I just LOVE having long hair. I remember back when I was a little kid, around 4-6…I always WANTED short hair. My hair would grow a little bit past my shoulders…and I’d immediately want it to be shorter. Then once I got to grade 7, I got my hair cut to just above my shoulders…it looked fine when it was styled properly, but at that time, I didn’t totally care. Then once I got to grade 9….my hair was about 3 inches below my shoulders..I never really used much heat on my hair back then, so my hair was ‘not the best looking thing’ ..partially wavy, partially straight, partially curly, I had it all haha. So then during the middle of grade 9, I got my hair cut….a little bit above my shoulders — WORST MOVE EVER. I still can’t get over the fact that my mom let me get my hair cut that short… I CAN NOT pull off short hair..AT ALL. But I partially blame the person that cut my hair, she didn’t know what she was doing. And now when I look back at pictures from grade 9…I almost cry a little. Then finally at the end of the summer after grade 9…I got a good hair straightener, and the future of my hair was looking a bit better. So ever since that horrid haircut in grade 9…I have been extremely attached to my hair…and never want it to look so awful again!!! >.<
FRIENDS FROM HIGH SCHOOL
I don’t really know how much I believed people when they said that you only talk to like maybe 2-3 people from high school, once you graduate. I mean I knew that there were some people that I probably would completely lose contact with/high school was as far as it would go with our friendship. Although I’m not going to lie, there were a couple people that I actually got CLOSER with during the last few weeks of grade 12/beginning of summer(this came as a total surprise to me). But what I’m trying to say is that I DID know that there were a few people that I would NOT lose contact with, and that I thought I’d just stay friends with as long as possible. To a certain degree, I’m still quite good friends with the people I KNEW I’d stay friends with….but then there are other people that I thought ‘meh, it’ll probably go on…we’ll see.’ <— yeah, about that….I said that about this one friendship I had with someone….it was SUCH an on and off friendship for like 5 years….and now I don’t think I’ve talked to them in like 2-3 weeks…and that’s quite a large period of time..usually we’re always texting/facebooking each other. And I think that whatever happens is for the best…and if there is something there, then it’ll work out, if not, oh well…MOVING ON WITH MY LIFE. I mean ‘real’ friends that want to maintain their relationship with you after high school…they’ll put in effort on their side, otherwise, it’s just not meant to be. Not saying that you should shun people that you ‘used’ to be friends with from your life forever or anything, for the most part, if you were pretty close in high school, they still ‘care’ about you, it’s just that you’ve probably drifted from each other from not seeing each other DAILY. But you just have to learn that not everyone will ALWAYS be with you..and sometimes you just have to let things work out for themselves. Life is about moving forward, and moving on from the past, and sometimes you can take some things from the past, but not all of it. 🙂